Thursday, 12 June 2008
We only part to meet again
Wednesday, 11 June 2008
Expect victory and you make victory
Tuesday, 10 June 2008
The Artist's Code
Monday, 9 June 2008
Chalkhill Blue
Who breaks a butterfly upon a wheel?
Saturday, 7 June 2008
Instant Vintage
Friday, 6 June 2008
A Dab Hand
Wednesday, 4 June 2008
Strange Dream
Of his love for his city, he was sure.
Maybe he was never quite meant for this world. Maybe he was like an islander on a mainland ward - comfortable, at times, with his own soul, but seldom with anyone else’s. But on the subject of the city, his now, he knew he was quite sure.
So why did he feel so nauseous? Or did he always feel this way, before and after, which is to say sick, sick as truth sometimes, sick like some political virus working its way into the body martial?
He needed wisdom, advice. Before going back, to the mountains, before returning, to the fight, he needed wisdom fast. His city, his now remember, was under threat. This was why he spent longer than usual pulling himself out of bed, if indeed it was bed, entering and exiting the other room, the so-called room for ablutions, kneeling by the bowl like some half-believer, whom he had almost forgotten, in his attempt the night before to body-surf across the up-raised hands of the city, was this city's man through and through.
He entered the populous streets and walked alone in a long straight line. Romans. Anglo-Saxons. Danes. (Runestones?) He needed some advice and needed it quick. The air by the river was fresh but no match for the mountains. Even with everyone in both places armed, at least over there you felt nature’s triumph. Here, these days, he found only a kind of former magnitude. And even with the mines over there like seas of jellyfish once the rains had stripped away the upper surfaces of the soil, nature did nothing wrong. Here, within the conurbation, within that which he had up until this very moment thought he knew well, cars continued to target the money, with their businessmen and businesswomen and service-based minds. Credit crunch? A mountain stream, he thought. Fifty million tonnes of cargo on the river each year? How about a place where the angels sing?
Anyway, he felt a swelling in his throat again and began concentrating on the enemies, for this was one of his bents. He thought about deliberately unimposing houses in the suburbs, dissociative glances, here as well as in the mountains, and he thought about stealth. And, he remembered, the quiet, increasing gatherings: the beards, darting eyes, and closing minds. The giant, epic, other bowls, of granite, made of granite, in mountains far away.
And he wondered why they wanted to kill him so?
He crossed the floodplain, by this hill and that. He crossed the busiest and oldest road, at least of his world, and saw some of the lights were on in the building. This was his, for now, his building of advice. These lights, he knew, these bulbs, like bulbs, like beacons of enlightened but depressed courage, belonged to this city, too. Even though it is day and the clouds have parted and the sun is sending wave upon wave of ancient heat and light to stoke the city’s heart and stroke the city’s skin, these lights will always remain on.
He didn’t bother with the lift and kept on walking. He could feel the sweat on his collar and still he kept on walking. One bead ran the length of his back and did a kind of detour passed his scar. Vertigo, he was thinking. He never used to get vertigo and yet two weeks before in the mountains he got vertigo, started trembling - right there, on the mountain. And this was exactly when he saw the city’s enemies.
It wasn’t like the old days. Not like with the others. Not like when with blazing ants coming at you and screaming like undertakers, you popped behind a rock. Not like when with the this and that and more rocks, you fed their children. Not like when they hit above your heads and you had to lean right back and watch what you thought was the mountains fall.
He had a pet theory about vertigo and it was this. As you eat your city sandwiches by the river and dream of falling in love again, please remember. They don’t give you vertigo when you are young because you are expendable then. Vertigo is there to save your life when you have children.
The carpet was soft, thick, violety. It was also, in patches, a quiet, almost shy, salmon pink. (Like a salmon, bouncing its bloody belly upon the tooth-like jagged rocks, he was also thinking, I shall reach my goal, I shall make a shoal of my affection... ) Anyway, a woman in the room to his left took her feet off the desk. He couldn’t see who she was, not to talk to, but felt a kind of respect, like they were two sides of the same river.
He proceeded towards the end of the corridor. This was when everything fanned out like a beautiful idea, like he had always hoped the city would again, and this beautiful idea was like a kind of half-nightclub and half-sitting room in which you might find God.
He moved cautiously, careful not to crunch the candles underfoot. On the wall to his immediate right - as he checked the cameras in each corner - was a large glass cabinet. Inside were these small sculpted heads, urban voodoo bracelets, handwriting on parchment, and very small pieces of amethyst.
Amethyst. The Ancient Greeks and Romans wore amethyst because they believed it prevented intoxication. Some of the pieces were also violet and some the colour of purple grapes.
‘Ah, there you go,’ came a voice.
He looked around, staring at the cameras first, but could not trace the source of this voice. He looked behind but didn’t see anyone there, either, only a chair, a lime-green, or possibly turquoise, chair.
‘Is that you?’ he asked the strange voice.
‘Is that who?’
‘Are you ... you know ... the one?’
‘You know the difference between your mountains and your city?’ The city man stepped back a few feet and listened. ‘The city, your city, is built on clay, and the energy, get it, the energy is absorbed, gets absorbed, right into the ground. Your mountains, however. The mountains from where you returned. The place where you say you saw this city’s enemies. They are all rock, the mountains ... all rock. There, there, in the mountains, everything pings straight right back at you, and doesn’t get absorbed at all.’
‘Is that it?’
‘You tell me.’
‘No reason for them to want to kill me, though,’ he said. Siren sounds passed through the street outside. ‘More prisoners?’ he asked, hearing them. ‘More people about to be absorbed into the ground.’
‘Somebody said to me that you wanted to know why these people wanted to kill you, is that right?’
‘That’s right.’
‘Well they don’t.’
‘I’m sorry?’
‘They don’t.’
‘Don’t what?’
‘Want to kill you.’
‘Is that it?’
‘No. There’s one more thing.’
‘What?’
‘They love your city.’
Tuesday, 3 June 2008
The Artist Makes Sense
Monday, 2 June 2008
Eight Days
Tuesday, 27 May 2008
Esprit d'escalier
I didn’t sleep at all well one night recently in the war zone and awoke to the syncopated sound of what was intended as a 21-gun salute to honour the country's victors in a war against recent foreign invaders. For security reasons, I had not been allowed to attend and had spent the night catching up with an old friend instead. As I rubbed my eyes, I took in the semi-darkness. My t-shirt was wet: wet with sweat. Then I began to hear some other sounds. They were of different weapons. What could have been machine gun-fire. Sporadic. Whatever it was, it was not far away. I stood up and slowly opened the shutters. The machine gun fire, different again, was more intense now. I knew something was up. I switched on the TV. Almost immediately, it was mentioned that the feed I had just missed of the nearby parade had suddenly been pulled. Something was definitely up. There was talk of the president having been whisked away and then they showed some replayed footage. What looked at first like a long distance, low budget animation of the cover of Sgt Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band filled the screen. A variety of strangely disconnected and theatrically attired people were sitting in the shade. Ambassadors, dignitaries, ministers, soldiers. Suddenly you saw some people fall forwards, others disappear towards the rear of the stand. It was redolent of the assassination of Egypt’s President Sadat. I dressed quickly and to the sound of a swarm of helicopters made my way to the security of the main compound. I felt uneasy, unlucky, faintly fatalistic. I also felt like I should be writing this all down in my blog; I should be finding the implausible link between the drama of the present moment and the battles and survivals of an artist. I say this only because I am looking at the artist right now and it was impossible to write about this from the war zone. Presently, she is working, her expression serious, and I can feel the explosions in her head. She will make it to the security of the main compound.
Monday, 26 May 2008
Man Alive
Sunday, 25 May 2008
That's My Boy
Saturday, 24 May 2008
Infinity goes up on trial
Friday, 23 May 2008
Fear and Loving
Thursday, 22 May 2008
Help The Artist
Monday, 19 May 2008
Portrait of a Nation
Thursday, 15 May 2008
Eulogy
Wednesday, 14 May 2008
Smoking Guns
Monday, 12 May 2008
Trigger
Friday, 9 May 2008
My Sister
Thursday, 17 April 2008
Onwards
Monday, 7 April 2008
Chocolate Melts and Befriended Viewers
Sunday, 6 April 2008
Erithacus Rubecula
Robin (male): How are you, my little redbreast?
Robin (female): Fine. Fine, darling. You?
M: Glad to be home. Some of the other males out there are acting a bit uppity. How's the -
F: The family in there?
M: The artist.
F: Pretty good, I think. It was snowing while you were out and they were all out in the garden. The artist's husband was filming them. He looked like a twitcher. The snowflakes were pretty thick.
M: He should be going soon, no?
F: Not sure.
M: I'm sure I heard them talking about it when they were in bed the other night and I popped round the back to get some more twigs.
F: Bring anything for supper?
M: A couple of worms.
F: I'll put the appetite on.
M: How's the belly?
F: Fine.
M: What shall we call it?
F: Do you like Latin?
M: A little.
F: How about Erithacus Rubecula then? Hey, the artist was on her exercise machine again.
M: Was she? What about the kids?
F: They don't need more exercise.
M: No, I meant what were they doing?
F: Oh, that. Sorting through their toys and clothes mostly. Once they came in from the snow.
M: Did the artist do any art?
F: Not today.
M: Good. She needs a rest.
F: You didn't find that magazine did you?
M: Which one?
F: BirdLife International. There's the new IUCN List of Threatened Species.
M: No. Sorry.
F (whispering): Shush.
M: A thrush, did you say?
F: Shush. The artist's kids have gone to bed. I can see the husband typing at the round red table.
M: Not again.
The two robins place their paper napkins round their necks and tuck into some worm.
Thursday, 3 April 2008
Art of the matter
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
Testing truthfully under real circumstances
Shot 1: Our 8-year-old daughter dances by the fireplace while our son sews his stitched sculptural man.
Shot 2: Our daughter types a list of her favourite books on the laptop: the list reads like a poem.
Shot 3: Our daughter's fingers type at the keys with improbable speed.
Shot 4: The artist is in the foreground on the bright red sofa listening to Bob Dylan's Workingman's Blues #2 on headphones while our daughter continues typing in the background.
Shot 5: The artist is dressed in grey and works on the detailed grey surface of her latest piece.
Shot 6: The artist's hand fills the frame as she crafts away at the detail.
Shot 7: Our daughter eats tomato and mozzarella while reading again on the laptop screen what she has just written.
Shot 8: Our son eats a bowl of soggy cornflakes with the TV screen in the background showing a weather report.
Shot 9: The artist tests a wireless microphone, twirling, mocking, smiling, talking, dancing.
Shot 10: A silver-coated Buddha sits on a lace-patterned black bookshelf between eleven novels and biographies.
Shot 11: The artist's husband looks and talks to camera while testing the wireless microphone and remote commander with self-mockery and a zoom out.
Shot 12: Our son and daughter are sitting on the bright red sofa as the camera zooms in and they whisper into a concealed microphone all the things they want to do when they visit their grandparents and cousin in the foothills.
Shot 14: Side-angle of the artist still working away at her piece.
Shot 15: Our son yawns and stares to camera.
Shot 16: Our son explains his stitched and sculpted man.
Shot 17: Our son and daughter dance again by the fireplace.
Shot 18: Caption
Shot 19: End credit.
Shot 20: Our son still stitching.
A well-known teacher across the ocean in the city of the scraped skies once described acting to his students as living truthfully under imaginary circumstances. Perhaps the above is simply about me testing truthfully under real circumstances.
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
Sound barriers
Monday, 31 March 2008
Death on the Mountain
Sunday, 30 March 2008
A Day of Rest(lessness)
Saturday, 29 March 2008
The Halves and Half-nots
It has been a day of three halves. A kind of mathematically impossible, yet cerebral, as well as emotional, ride.
1) I contacted an old friend yesterday who lives and works on a tropical island with what I quaintly imagine are windblown palm trees and low flying clouds and deep blue skies. (We went to school together in the chilly north.) I had written to him in order to alert him to someone else I knew, a painter, a successful one, and someone I have written about before on this site. I had just read that this painter was living and working on the island too and I thought they might benefit from each other's company. (I was also keen on finding a route to the painter for some advice.) Anyway, this morning I received a reply from my friend from school, stating that they were in fact the best of friends. They surf together. They play racquetball together. Their families know each other well. Indeed, they were all with each other only last night.
2) According to reports today, a prominent female artist has disappeared without trace in one of the major capitals of the continental mainland. She was from a third country, a large one, famous again for eliminating its opposition. Though there is no evidence of foul play, and her husband does admit his wife's disappearance remains a complete mystery, one or two experts already point to a conspiracy. They also point to the mysterious ransacking of the museum where she last exhibited, and to the many recent serious threats.
3) The 5-year-old filmmaker of this parish placed down his camera today and picked up a needle and thread. He proceeded to create a life-size figure. He made a man with hands and facial features, a bag, long octopus-like arms, knees like boils, clothes like a fashion king of grunge. He spent most of the day making this creature and while he would place it down every now and then, it was never for long. I have now just been told the aforementioned creation will be accompanying him to bed. He also wants to take him to the beautiful foothills where his grandparents live.
Diverse and ongoing.
Friday, 28 March 2008
Interface, Setup, and Input: Action!
Thursday, 27 March 2008
Interview with an Artist's Daughter
I haven't interviewed you for a while. How are you?
Fine, thank you.
She hangs the book-bag on the back of the chair.
Anything new to report?
Apart from reading? A smile. Actually, as a matter of fact I did some drawing in the morning recently. And my mother has been doing the most detailed and exquisite drawings about two meters long. She's been working very hard. She's also been working at my school. It's really weird seeing her walking into class and saying 'How are you?' and doing art with us.
How about your reading?
Again she smiles at the thought of it.
Well, I have been reading this amazingly fabulous book. Actually I've never read this kind of book before because it's a kind of an animal story ... but not only an animal story, it's also teaching you about the army and the war.
Which war?
The big one just over sixty years ago. She looks at the TV screen: images from the war zone. It's also quite a sad story.
Does it have illustrations?
It's got these quite small and detailed little drawings, which I think are really good.
Has your mother made you appreciate drawing more?
Definitely. She also inspires me. She took me to one of the biggest galleries with a friend the other day. I was drawing while we were there. My mother helps me lots. She always gives lots of tips. Before you do a face, for example, she always tells you to draw a line down the middle longways and then a line across half of the face sideways, then she tells you to draw the eyes on the middle line, and ... one hint ... add a fringe otherwise it will look a bit silly.
What about your 5-year-old brother's art?
Well, my brother's art is like real life drawing these days.
Thank you.
Can I go now?
Wednesday, 26 March 2008
A Projected Future and a Blast from the Past
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
daffodils, That come before the swallow dares*
"I wander'd lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze"
... did not spring to mind. In fact, I felt like an unpoetic oaf. I felt as though some cynical hand had dispatched these bulbs back to these shores, charging so little that the person who broke their back planting them must have been paid a pittance. But then when I walked into the flat this afternoon after a tumultuous time in the centre of the capital, they were all laughing at me, all twenty of them, bright and yellow and slightly mad. They had flowered. The pigmentation was like the meaning of the word yellow. I was reminded of E.E. Cummings - or ee cummings - this time, a favourite poet when I was fourteen ...
"in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how
in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)
in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes
in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)
and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me"
It really is almost as if the daffodils are having the last laugh.
* William Shakespeare, The Winter's Tale